DAY 18: THE PERSON THAT YOU WISH YOU COULD BE

These letters, while boring, do make you think. This one in particular made me think about who I am, and how I try to be the person that I can be. I know I make mistakes sometimes, but I try my best, and I think that's all anyone can ask for. I think I could try a harder to be someone who pleases everyone, but in doing that, I don't think that I would please myself. This one's kinda weird to put in letter form, but here goes...

To me,

There are many things that stick out when I think about my past, and not all of them are good things. There were many moments in which I chose the wrong path, or the way that would make me "cool." I wouldn't change a thing. I'm not saying that I'm perfect, in fact, I'm saying that I know that I'm not. I'm just saying that you can't learn to live without experiencing it. In the game of life, practice makes perfect, and boy, do I need a lot of practice!

It's sad that I have to think really hard to come up with good things or times that I have, and that shouldn't be. It's not that I don't have good qualities, and it's not that I am a pessimist, it's just that when you do something great, it's expected, whereas if you make a mistake, everyone remembers. Including yourself. How much does THAT suck?! So to me I propose a plan. I don't want to change how I am, because that wouldn't be me. Instead, I want to be a person that can be self-confident, a person that can remember when she did great things, but I also want to be a person with a little humility so that I can take it all in stride.

Self, keep doing your thing, but try to remember the good times as well. Be someone that others can love and respect, but be true to yourself.

Love, Mb