Friday, July 30, 2010

DAY 7: YOUR EX BOYFRIEND

Alright, heres where the letters take a turn. These next few go from being really fun to being kind of hard to write. Even though it should be pretty obvious who this next one is going to, I'm not going to post names or anything because, well, I don't have to.

Ex,
It took me awhile to get over you, and awhile after that to want to end our relationship. I stayed with you longer than I should have because I was scared. You see, when you cheated on me, I forgave you, and your "thanks" for that was to turn around again with another girl. I turned a blind eye when you went after my friends, and when I found out, I let it go more easily than I should have.

I don't forgive you for how inadequate you made me feel. I don't forgive you for making me lose self esteem. The actions you took have still made me feel like less of a person today, making it harder for me to even form friendships with people. I almost lost my best friend because of you, and you never cared. You told me my school wasn't as good as yours, my friends weren't as good as yours, and I believed you. When I had a problem, though, it wasn't you who was there for me, it was my friends. They gave me a second chance, in a way you hadn't even given me a first.

I don't regret our time together because I made friendships that mattered, and I matured faster than I would have otherwise. I learned from you, and now know that I deserve better. I hope that someday you find happiness and love with someone, but I also hope that before that comes, that you learn the lessons that I unwillingly had to learn through you.

Love, Mb

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