Ex,
It took me awhile to get over you, and awhile after that to want to end our relationship. I stayed with you longer than I should have because I was scared. You see, when you cheated on me, I forgave you, and your "thanks" for that was to turn around again with another girl. I turned a blind eye when you went after my friends, and when I found out, I let it go more easily than I should have.
I don't forgive you for how inadequate you made me feel. I don't forgive you for making me lose self esteem. The actions you took have still made me feel like less of a person today, making it harder for me to even form friendships with people. I almost lost my best friend because of you, and you never cared. You told me my school wasn't as good as yours, my friends weren't as good as yours, and I believed you. When I had a problem, though, it wasn't you who was there for me, it was my friends. They gave me a second chance, in a way you hadn't even given me a first.
I don't regret our time together because I made friendships that mattered, and I matured faster than I would have otherwise. I learned from you, and now know that I deserve better. I hope that someday you find happiness and love with someone, but I also hope that before that comes, that you learn the lessons that I unwillingly had to learn through you.
Love, Mb
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